We’re All a Mess
Jesus-followers must openly admit our brokenness before God by falling into the embrace of our loving Father which is the first step to revival.
Waking up to see Jesus is a worthy endeavor. It’s time to study Jesus with fresh eyes, laying aside for a time what we already know—or think we know—about him. Christianity, in its purest form, is nothing more than seeing Jesus. Christian living, in its purest form, is noting more than imitating him who we see. To see Jesus’ Majesty and to imitate him…that is the sum of Christianity.
We remember the nursery rhyme about Humpty Dumpty, the egg who sat on a wall. Actually, Humpty Dumpty was not an egg, but a powerful cannon during the English Civil War. It was mounted on top of the St Mary's at the Wall Church. The tower was hit by enemy cannon fire and the top of the tower was blown off, sending "Humpty" tumbling to the ground. Naturally all the King's horses and all the King's men (Royalist cavalry and infantry respectively) tried to mend "him" but in vain. But here’s the rhyme:
“Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall,
All the King's horses and all the King's men,
Couldn't put Humpty back together again."
Does that nursery rhyme bring back memories, or what? Do we have any "Humpty Dumpty Christians" in Churches today? Sure, we all know some, or maybe we have been one at some time in our life. Hummmmmm.....Something to think about here! Sometimes they are not recognized until they have a great fall.
Many Jesus-followers are just like Humpty, who was pictured as "an egg". We see him in his bow tie with his 'cute little hat' perched on top of his funny looking egg-shaped body. With his stocking legs and cute smiling face, he looks all safe and secure....... until he has a great fall! What was Humpty happily doing before he fell? He appears to be "just sitting,” unbroken. Is it the same way today in Churches across the land or not? Many sit on a wall in fear of what is happening in the world around them. We don’t hear these Jesus-followers singing as David the Psalmist, "I have run through a troop and leaped over a wall by you O Lord". Many are too busy sitting on the walls of safety instead. They are afraid to deal with the fact that they are susceptible to brokenness. So they remain unbroken.
Perhaps they are just waiting for the Lord to come back.
- Instead of “working..... they are waiting,”
- Instead of "walking......they are talking,”
- Instead of "dining......they are whining,"
- And instead of "trying...they are sighing,"
- Instead of "feeding.... they are feuding,”
- Instead of "praying...... they are playing.”
- And.... instead of really "trying,
- most of these actually.... are dying"!!!
All of us as Jesus-followers, like Humpty have experienced brokenness in life. It has no demands; it makes no requests. The King’s horses and King’s people of this life can’t help us. But brokenness is falling into the embrace of our loving Father and finding him to be enough. God can put us back together again. It is not just saying, “God, I need you,” but “God, you are all I need.”
Brokenness =“empty handedness before God”
Brokenness is saying “no” to the clamoring voice of our flesh. It is saying “no” to the pride and self-confidence that has made us restless and unhappy for so long. It is saying “yes” to the longing for God that he has planted deep within the soul of each person. It is saying “yes to see Jesus!”
Before a horse can be useful to its owner, it has to be broken. An unbroken stallion is proud and strong. It will paw and snort and let no one ride it. But then a bit goes in its mouth, a saddle goes on its back, and someone climbs up and hangs on. The stallion immediately starts to buck, because it doesn’t want to be broken. But eventually it stops fighting and surrenders to the will of its owner.
Sometimes we have that same stubborn, rebellious, I-can-do-it spirit within us. God has to break those attitudes because they keep us from experiencing true intimacy with him. “What exactly is going to be broken?” Here are some of the big ones:
1. Stubbornness. “I am going to do this my way.” If we are one of God’s children, that attitude is on its way out. We can fight with God for a long time if we want, but our stubbornness will eventually be broken.
2. Pride. “I know better; I am better.” God hates pride in the hearts of his children. People who have been greatly used by God have come to grips with the need to dispense with all pride.
3. Willfulness. “You can’t make me. You can’t tell me. When I am good and ready, I will.” That’s willfulness, and it is also on its way out. If we are one of God’s children, he is going to use
whatever he has to use to get that out of our heart and life.
4. Independence. “I can make it without you.” Nothing will inhibit our intimacy with the Father like an attitude of self-sufficiency. Those who have been used greatly by God have recognized their weakness and relied on God’s strength.
All of these attitudes keep us from experiencing true intimacy with God. That is why God will do whatever it takes to break us.
We say, “Well how does God break us?” Here are some of God’s most common tools:
- Broken health
- Broken careers
- Broken dreams
- Broken relationships
- Broken promises
- Broken hearts
- Broken finances
God uses these tools to rid our lives of the things that hinder our intimacy with him. Some people say, “I thought God was supposed to be loving? If I was God, I would never let my children go through hard times like that.” Well, we’re not God! God’s love is not a pampering love; it’s a perfecting love. God is trying to produce something in us—the likeness of his Son—and God is going to do whatever it takes to make that happen.
Perhaps life is going very well right now, and we can say, “I’m not going through this breaking thing.” That’s not very comforting, actually. If we’re not going through any hard times, then God is not working on us. And if God is not working on us, we are either too self-righteous or perhaps we are not one of his children. Maybe we need to examine ourselves, our righteousness, and see whether we are in the faith. In our brokenness we will never experience true intimacy with God until we are able to come before him in genuine humility, utterly desperate for him. We need to be broken.
Mark Buchanan wrote in his book, Your God is Too Safe, that there is one soil that usually withers stubbornness, pride, willfulness, and independence. It is brokenness. He goes on to write that brokenness "molds our character closer to the character of God than anything else. To experience defeat, disappointment, loss—the raw ingredients of brokenness—moves us closer to being like God than victory and gain and fulfillment ever can."
We hear the statement many times that someone or something broke my heart. Since God created us in his image, he is the only one who can break our hearts. God is also the only one who can fashion them back into wholeness.
Bad hair day is just that; a bad hair day. Everyone, including you, sees it. But bad breath is different. Others smell it, but you can’t. Self-righteousness—believing you can’t be broken or thinking you are better than someone else—is like bad breath. Other can smell it, but you can’t.
We see this self-righteous attitude which blocks brokenness in the parable of the Pharisee and the tax collector in Luke 18:9-14:
9 To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: 10 "Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: 'God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.' 13 "But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.' 14 "I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted."
The context is prayer in the Temple. The devout observed three prayer times daily—9 a.m., 12 midday and 3:00 p.m. Prayer was held to be specifically effectual if it was offered in the Temple, and so at these hours many went up to the Temple courts to pray. Jesus told of two men who went to pray.
A Study on Brokenness
We can observe that this parable would have shocked Jesus’ listeners. This story is a study on brokenness. Let’s contrast for a moment the nature of each of the key characters in this parable.
The Pharisee—Religious Good Guy
11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: 'God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.'
While many of Jesus’ parables were delivered to Pharisees, this is the only parable that includes a Pharisee as one of the actors in Jesus' story. The term “Pharisee” is presumed to have come from parûš, which in Hebrew means “Separated One.” “The Pharisees were a movement (not a denomination in the modern sense) within Judaism devoted to observing the Torah, including ritual purity, and piety toward God” They were regarded among the devout portion of the Jewish people.
So this Pharisee is truly a good guy—he recycles his trash, pays his bills, mows his lawn, gives money to charities, coaches his kid’s baseball team, attends church regularly, loves his wife, and doesn’t chase other women. He is John Q. Citizen at his very best.
The Tax Collector— Social Outcast
13 "But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.'
Tax collecting, in the time of Jesus, was a profession that was riddled with corruption. This tax collector must have been Jewish because he is at the Temple praying. The occupational tasks were to collect tolls, market duties, and other local taxes. The Roman system of tax collection almost made corruption inevitable. People were routinely unfairly overcharged by the tax collectors. Because of the despicable nature of tax collectors, none of Jesus’ audience would have ever imagined a tax collector entering the Temple to pray.
So this tax collector is a social outcast. He had sold out to the Roman government for money. He is the developer who puts in strip malls while ignoring the environment, the logger who clear-cuts virgin timber without reseeding, the stockbroker who advises you to sell just to make a commission. He doesn’t so much disobey the law as use the law to line his own pockets. Every society has “tax collectors,” and society hates them.
Throughout the Gospels, Jesus comes down hard on people who are self-righteous, believing that they cannot be broken, especially the Pharisees. So Jesus likes this tax collector better than the Pharisee because the tax collector sees what he really is—a broken mess—while the Pharisee denies his true heart. The tax collector knows he has a bad hair day, but the Pharisee doesn’t know he has bad breath.
The Lesson: The lesson of this parable is clear: No one really has it all together. Everyone’s life is a bit of a mess. All of us need help because of our brokenness.
The Pharisee’s arrogance overpowers his ability to see himself clearly. He just doesn’t get it. But the tax collector knows his life isn’t working, he knows that his life has been centered on himself, playing God, running roughshod over people. He knows it and hates it, so he turns to outside help. He doesn’t just need an assist from God, he needs a complete makeover, so he cries out, “God, have mercy on me, a sinner.” The tax collector has come to the earth-shattering conclusion that he, not his circumstances, caused the mess in his life. Even his body language reflects his heart—he stands at a distance, not even looking up, beating on his chest. He can’t do life on his own anymore. Jesus finds this man’s honesty more attractive than the proud accomplishment of the Pharisee.
"Brokenness and freedom go together, in that order;
first suffering, then comfort;
first trouble, then joy;
first felt unworthiness, then felt love;
first death to the self, then resurrection of the soul."
Admitting our Brokenness
It is a huge relief to admit that we are broken: that we turn inward and instinctively take care of our needs first. Let’s try this little exercise by filling in the blanks of the Pharisee’s prayer. It’s a simple way to get in touch with our inner Pharisee.
“God, I thank you that I am not like (a group of people that drives you crazy) or even like (one particular person who drives you crazy). I (something good you do that those other people don’t do).”
Knowing that we are broken means we can stop pretending we have it all together. Jesus says to people, “Relax—you’re much worse than you think!” It is a little scary to move in this direction because we lose control of our image—of how others see us. But did we ever control it anyway?
Jesus doesn’t want his listeners to stay broken, he wants them, like the tax collector, to turn to God and say, “God, have mercy on me, a sinner.” Getting in touch with our inner tax collector make room for God’s energy in our lives. Jesus concludes the parable saying: 14 "I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted."
According to Jesus, we all need forgiveness. Knowing we are inadequate before God and other people leads to compassion, but thinking we are good before God and others makes us self-centered and difficult to live with. The better we think we are, the less we can love. The more we see our need, the more we’ll turn for help…and the more we’ll help others because we are able to see their need.
The first step toward God is realizing we are on the wrong path going the wrong way. It’s actually quite freeing if we think about it. We all know that when we have bad breath, we need some mouth wash or mints to rid us of the bad odor. One such product is “breath assures.” But with the acknowledgement from God that we have bad breath, we can get real and relax by taking the “breath assures” of God’s forgiveness. “The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise” (Psalm 51:17 NIV). When we realize that we don’t have it all together, we can care for people because we no longer feel morally superior to them. Consequently God’s “breath assures” or we might even say “Spirit assures” enable us to be quicker to help than to give advice, quicker to listen than to lecture. O Lord, I realize that I don’t have it all together. Help me deal with my brokenness in… ___
Heal me so I can help care for people, to be quicker to listen than to lecture. Amen.
So paradoxically, as Jesus-followers, we are all—every last one of us—more or less unbroken in our stubbornness, pride, willfulness, and independence. The Christian journey is one of God bringing us out of the trash represented by the tree of knowledge—such as sinful, rule-based, self-righteous, self-sufficient, prideful dependence upon our own strength, wisdom and knowledge into the treasures represented by the tree of life—such as brokenness, humility, worship of and dependence upon God. These are God’s highest desires for all of his children to bring us to revival. God’s desires are always what are best for us. They are highly prized by God, and once we begin to understand and bear the fruit of them, we will prize them highly too. Amen!


